A Mistake Made With a Lesson Learned

“Children of today won’t stay wise” 2Pac. Humans with guilty conscience, lying through their teeth. Being disturbed by a dream come true, just imagine if all the instrument in a symphony play at full loud volume, all the horns blowing at full blast and each drum beating as fast and loud as it can gets!!! A loud voice cannot compete with a clear voice, even if it’s a whisper (Kaufman). No symphony plays that way, music is more than noise making, it is the controlled expression of different sound; so is human’s character, we all cannot make loud noise, improvement on ways of life: growing up and learning about environments of a poor minded human can be expected to have a major impact on their I.Q. even if they are old or young. Experience in life is the best teacher. A mistake made with a lesson learned cannot be repeated again. Good judgment comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment. A voice in me keeps asking me why I refused to act like my age-range-mates, at the same time, it keeps telling me to satisfy myself at this early age because after marriage, it cannot be re-winded. Walking along a very narrow way, which seems to be smooth, neither do I remember what my life would be in the next 4-5 years. I don’t live for today alone, I live for tomorrow and next tomorrow, on and on. Life is like a book, opening pages, beginning of chapters with ending endless stories. It is like a saying, when you use your early morning to joke and enjoy everything that comes out easy, it will be difficult at night to repair the damages made. Trying hard early and enjoying the sweat of one’s labor is better than finding easy moneymaker: drug dealers, stealing or prostituting. Back to 2pac’s word, “children of nowadays won’t stay wise.” Some say life is easy, while some say life is not easy: it comes in both ways, it can be easy if you make it easy for yourself and it can be bitchy if you slap it other way round. As a growing young adult, I realized that listening to people who are older is actually better than listening to someone who is around your age range. What experience might they have gained that you obviously not closed to? Like my mother’s saying… someone cannot push you to do something without you agreeing to do that, someone cannot cut your head without your presence. I always believe that no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. Sometimes, you choose what you want to be; no one can choose life for you. Blaming others for ignorant mistake made with unreasonable actions that brought out negative answer is not anybody’s fault, accept mistake made and learn from it, so as to avert it in the nearest future. As a young lady and being very conservative in SOME issues is something that cause conflict among young adults. IMPOSSIBILTIES: I hate ladies that don’t have self-respect. But who am I to judge? But I hate hypocrites and pretenders. I chose to be judged, screamed at, beaten, not that I am stupid or dumb, but sometimes, keeping quiet is hard (it is hard for me to do), but as for me, sometimes, when I am being hurt, instead of saying it out, I keep that to myself, and definitely end up being depressed. **** happens huh! What a life! I chose not to do what most of my mates are doing because I don’t find pleasure in it. Sometimes I laugh at something that is not funny, but inside me; I know why I am laughing. Why do people say something behind your back, paint total different pictures about you and also lie behind you and later come to your face and laugh, life isn’t fair at all. I wish I were God; I would have destroyed this world of sins and wickedness. I am not a church person, meaning I believe that God is my creator, but I prefer to worship Him on my own, but I don’t lie to myself, if I keep malice, revenge back, I guess I am still a sinner, some don’t have guilty conscience, but I cry out with my all time, “to err is human.” Difficulties/sorrow: Judas Iscariot stabbed Jesus… Satan was a very close angel before he tempted God, something happen for a reason. Lord won’t allow bad thing to happen to you, but keep to advice and warning giving to you. The person that gave that advice might have seen some things… my young innocent trusted mind destroyed my whole mind. People laugh at you but have you ever wondered what each individual think about you? But they keep smile and definitely have mind to destroy or block your success. Be careful, the gold that is shinning outside have a very dark secret inside. I don’t believe people can wake up one day and bring you down with actions or words of the mouth. Once again, I have young mind. I tried not to think that people could do whatever evil they want, but who cares, my mind is still young in the world. Diplomacy is the number one key to communicate successfully with all types of people in all types of tough situations. Diplomacy takes care of tough situations and difficult people by knowing exactly what to say and when to say before they change your word. People trust people too much, that is why they end up being miserable after being slapped. There is this word I put up in my room “Better a poor man whose walk is blameless than a fool whose lips are perverse” (Proverb 19:1). That is probably comes as no surprise to y’all, because as of world of ours today, you have witnessed time and again how people pretend. Attitude / behavior is not something that can be hidden. Contrarily to majority’s belief, attitude isn’t a gift that some are born with and the rest of them (us) lack. It is a skill that can be learned and mastered. The truth is that some haven’t had opportunity to learn from their mistake, while blaming others for their mistake made, they stumble along doing the worst they can and quicker or sooner. You have been there, right? We all have! I have never find myself wishing I could take back a statement that just flew out of my mouth. I think before I make my statements, it might be very harsh… but that is being brutally honest. I don’t have problem pushing someone to hell fire even when I know that the person is the kind that think he/she/it know it all. Different human being with different opinion, I don’t listen if I don’t want to listen, if even when I know that those are the same decisions they have made in the past and their life has been challenged mentally, physically, waking up with nightmares and being on the run for continued existence purpose. It is like a blind man leading a blind man; they will both end up in the gutter. Never give criticism in a way that promotes hatred/ jealousy mind or negative due to anger. Learn how to get your foot out of your mouth when you have destroyed people and made statement you regret. I may be young, but I know what I am doing. A person with pure heart will find it difficult to bear the incomprehension of others and their mocking attitude. Why am I saying all these? When people know your weak points all too well, they often use them and sometimes abuse them. The time flew by and my fingers keeps typing… couldn’t believe what the time says. Hmmm, God forgive us all.